It feels like a lot has happened since I last posted. Still no Poppy, although I do feel like she won’t wait much longer. Last week, we got to go on a tour of Seattle Children’s. We got to see what Poppy will be transported in from UW to Children’s, a NICU room, where she will temporarily reside until her surgery, a CICU room (cardiac ICU) room, where she will mostly reside, and a regular room, where she will be once she is off of certain medications, but most importantly, the room she will be in before she gets discharged. It was so nice to get a visual of what to expect that way. It’s obviously a whole other thing to imagine yourself there, but overall it helps. We also got to see what kind of services the hospital offers to siblings! There is a pool where Crosby can swim during the one hour open swim, and also a playroom/activity area where he can go and do some fun activities with us or the grandparents. They have literally thought of everything! Parents can utilize a resource center if they want to research anything on their child’s illness. Parents can also access free massage, a bed to sleep in, and a laundry room (detergent provided)! And, much to Brad’s relief, 2 Starbucks right in the hospital! It seems like they’ve really made it their goal to accommodate the family-so cool.
On Saturday, Brad’s mom flew out to help us with Crosby during our appointments and just in case Poppy should come before her scheduled date. It has been so nice to have the extra help with him! I think they are both enjoying themselves as well! 😉
On Monday, I had another OB appointment. Poppy did great at her stress test! We were so relieved. I was nervous how it would go this week, since last week she was a little slow to perform. Dr. Cheng was happy with everything! We got to meet with the anesthesiologist as well. It seems all of my pre-op paperwork and consultations are out of the way. That in itself is a relief!
Yesterday, Dr. Vernon took another look at Poppy’s heart. She said it’s getting harder to get a great picture, due to the fact that Poppy’s getting so big, but she said she looked great. No new surprises, other than she was able to see a small leak in her pulmonary valve again 😦 She’s not overly concerned about it at this point, as it had been seen before during previous echos. They will be able to see her heart best once she is born, so we are still praying it clears up!
I just want to say that we have been so impressed by all of the doctors we have met with and will be working with. All have been so compassionate and kind to us as a family, which really means a lot to us. We are so blessed to have been cared for so well through all of this so far. There is truly no doubt of God’s orchestration in this whole situation. His provision, comfort and peace that He has provided for our family through your prayers, and the people He has surrounded us with is what keeps us going. It’s awesome. It’s truly as good as it could be, given the scenario- thank you Jesus.
And now it’s the waiting and anticipation for our Poppy Florence. The reality that we will be a 2-kid family is really hitting. What a tremendous blessing! Crosby gets to be an older brother! The kid was born to be an older brother, no doubt-we are so excited to see how he does it. I am so excited to meet Poppy! So excited..and so scared at the same time. Excited to meet my sweet baby girl, and hold her in my arms. Scared, because once she is born..then it begins. She is safe in my womb, but once she is born, everything changes and becomes complicated. Our lives change forever…for the better but with overwhelming uncertainty. Everything will be touch and go, the possibility of a heart transplant at some point in her life is always a realistic expectation, she will fight for every single day of her life. But if there’s anything Brad and I have already learned, is that really, everything in life is uncertain, no guarantees. The only time we really know we have is the present. Every second we have with our kids, family, and friends should be cherished, because life is short and so uncertain. Gaining that perspective alone has been such a blessing to us. We thought we cherished our time with Crosby, each other, family, and friends before, but now time together is special on a whole new level- it brings me to tears just thinking about it. Every day together is indeed a celebration. Poppy has already touched so many lives, not to mention the impact she has already had on ours. Thank you, Lord for blessing us with Poppy, and a new perspective of the things that matter most. We are not the same people we were before Dec. 17, 2012. We can’t wait to meet her 🙂 She’s a special little lady, that’s for sure!