In a matter of hours….

This morning around 8:00am, Brad and I will check in to UW Labor and Delivery, and I will begin to be prepped for surgery. We are told the c-section will begin at 10:00am and we should meet Poppy within just a few minutes. It is so hard to believe the day will finally be here when we get to meet our precious Poppy. It has seemed so far off for so long-the reality of actually meeting her today is surprisingly hard to imagine.

We’ve been told in great detail about what we can expect, but still somehow I’m filled with anxiety, helplessness, excitement, joy and heartache all at the same time. I am so excited to finally meet our sweet girl and so anxious and scared about what lies ahead. I know the Lord has ALL of this in His hands, and I know His will will be done, and as I’ve said before, there is great comfort in that. However, I’m still human and the feelings of helplessness, anxiety, and heartache still enter in. What should be a time of endless joy and excitement are tainted with the possibility of worst case scenarios.

Yesterday was a challenge indeed, just the reality that our life begins a new chapter tomorrow, and knowing that Poppy will be no longer ‘safe’ as she was in my womb has had me an absolute mess all day. It is through constant prayer that I am asking the Lord to help me find peace and rest in Him alone, and to not be afraid because He is in control. We are talking every minute-this is my prayer….because it has to be. Only God can guide us through life- good/bad, happy/sad. Thank you all for your prayers and loving words. They mean more than we could ever express. Please continue to pray as we are just beginning this journey in a matter of hours….

12 thoughts on “In a matter of hours….

  1. May you find comfort in knowing thoughts and prayers are with you from many people that you might not even know.

  2. Christi and Brad in my darkest hours the 23 rd Psalm was a rock. Every word meditated on as a prayer. Here are some of them…..The Lord is “your’ Shepard and you have no want.. He leads you beside the still waters, He makes you to lie down in lush green pastures, He “restores: your souls. He leads you in the path of righteousness for His names sake. Yea though you walk thru the “valley of the shadow” you will fear no evil because He is with you. Even in the face of the enemy he prepares a place for you and anoints your head with oil, causing your cup to run over. Goodness and Mercy will follow you all the days of your life as you dwell in the house of the Lord. I see many provision and promises in this verse and pray then for your family.
    Totally understand your anxiety and the fear of the unkown. Praying for beautiful Poppy and your family that asall circumstances unfold there will be one miracle after another. May the Lord bless and keep you.

  3. You are a beautiful writer Christi… your honesty is so refreshing in a world of “have to portray ourselves as perfect no matter what’s true” mentality. I simply cannot imagine the emotions you are juggling. Like you say, even though we know God is sovereign, we are still human and it simply IS a struggle to rest in Him every moment in challenges as great as the one you are facing. However, I KNOW He is “in the boat with you”… (remember the disciples in the boat being fearful in the storm until Jesus says to them, “I am in the boat with you”). He WILL carry you through whatever awaits you. I’m thinking of you and praying for you and your family. Peace and love, Kelley

  4. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers as always, and especially today. Praying for little Poppy as she enters this amazing family surrounded by all the love in the world!

  5. I saw your prayer request about 2 months ago. My heart went out to you and your family. I found myself seeking God all the time for you. I have shared your story with everyone I know, and every prayer warrior. I know God is with you all, and He is in control. But I can relate to you, my son was born with a heart disease. I prayed over him all the time as you have prayer over Poppy. We take our blessings and praise God for them, whether they are good or bad. God hears every word spoken and every thought. He knows exactly where you are right now, Christi He loves you and He is holding you so tight right now. His arms are wrapped around you and He is kissing your cheek. Just find that place of comfort in Him, knowing nothing is impossible with God. My son was given a time frame, he would only live to his early teens if that. God had other plans for him, he is 32 yrs old now. Two heart surgeries, lots of ICU moments. But God heard our prayers and our hearts cry. God has a plan and purpose for Poppy, she is such a blessing to all of us. Love you all so much and know I am seeking God with all I have for you and your family. God bless

  6. Dear Christi, when we aere at UW, Bible verses wouldn’t come to me. Instead all of the choruses from the hymns we have sang together through the years filled my thoughts. Remember those camp songs and from sunday school. I kept hearing: Love lifted me love lifted me, when nothing else could help, love lifted me. Judy Lamb

  7. Praying for your family. I know a sweet girl who turns 8 today. Today is a good day to have a baby!!! Praying!!!!!

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